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When yes is yes, and no is no.

I found out, during this period, that the silent "let me know if you need anything"-zero action is a bigger comfort to me than "I'll come and accompany you."-and a whole lot of insisting.

I hate insisting. Hate, with a big H.

The trying-hard-to-be-nice, enforcing your kind gesture onto me kind of insisting.

I never understood. Why people... people whom I thought understand and know me, can't knowledge that when I say "no" it really means "不要/ ta-mau", no.

The same for offering to share my food. Or give up something of mine to you. If I want it, I won't offer. The needless tug of war... I can't comprehend.

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"Give you."

"Never mind, u eat. U eat."

"Take la. I still have."

"You eat laaaa."

*tmd. Act one shy for what! In the heart is super want*

"TAKE IT! IF I WANT IT, I WON'T OFFER IT TO YOU. I'M NOT SO GIVING!!"

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Don't they know that if I really need them, I would say "yes"? Do they think I'm superficial, for not speaking my mind?

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Then again, I think back and wonder if I do the same for others. For Cheryl and Mommy maybe. The guys at home are to stubborn to insist. And the rest of the people, I'm selfishly un-bothered.


xoxo,

Chelsea

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